Currently Reading The Calvary Road By Roy Hession see related

this morning I read this in The Calvary Road:

"Everything that comes as a barrier between us and another, however small, comes as a barrier between us and God."

alright.

yesterday and today I woke up extra early. Josh wakes up at 6:00 AM because most successful people say 'rise and shine' at that hour. I've felt more contentment in this practice because I've filled that extra time with reading scripture. at the end of the day I am so tired, and throughout the day my desires to enjoy the company of friends has decreased. maybe I'm just so tired lately. my mind is too filled and I want to become more productive. lately I've been timid; lately I've been overly confident.

Currently Listening Under the Blacklight By Rilo Kiley see related

tonight my uncle told me that boyfriends are kind of like jobs: you move on to bigger and better ones. my mom told me to ignore him. he said "so you're going to work at the same job forever, huh?" "no, good boyfriends you have to wait for, jobs are different like that. you need a job to make money and survive. you don't need a boy to make money or survive."

I have the best boyfriend though! so that's what's up. THAT'S WHAT'S UP.

Currently Listening Christmas Songs By Jars of Clay see related

I'm glad my life is not a chart or graph.

the world holds a vast amount of different perspectives, and I find it interesting how each individual develops their outlook. A + B = C, or maybe A + B= D. it's very fascinating, you know, because A & B combined may cause one person to act/see things one way, while that same formula could affect person two in a completely different way. people are so intriguing. "everything is miserable" and "life is too short to be unhappy" are colliding view points. and I wonder if we could embrace some of both, in a healthy medium. beauty does not only belong to pain and brokenness; joy and peace are smothered in beauty. and I'm hoping we can embrace both. because until then we will only experience one aspect of truth and beauty, and our minds(hearts) will be very narrow. the period in my life in which I only accepted sorrow and distress as beautiful I felt very empty. happiness and positivity left me the same way. one way or another we will be missing something. about five years ago I did not accept joy easily, but now people are reminding me that distress and exhaustion are acceptable. understanding this balance is challenging, for me, anyway. thanks.